Will he ever have a good day?

Oh son. Son, son sonnnnn!!!!!! I am being influenced by this blog as my screaming 4 year old is bugging me for attention! He's mad that I'm on the CPU and not letting him watch videos on YouTube! So this might be kinda a repeat blog from a few months ago but fuck it, it's what's on my mind right now. Did you know that my son has cried EVERY-SINGLE-DAY of his life since he's been born? I am SO NOT exaggerating this! He is such a whiny kid. Just whines and cries about everything! I HATE when people tell me "You don't whoop him enough". Or "send him to me, I'll fix him". To that, I tell everyone SHUT THE FUCK UP! I am a pretty strict mom. I do discipline my child. I have spanked my child and he does have a "naughty chair". This is who he is. He has a mind of his own and boy is he stubborn!!! He has his dad, my dad, his great grandpa and me all mixed in one. Poor kid. It's in his genes and blood line to be a semi pain in the butt! He doesn't get his way and the throws himself on the floor. I tell him "no" and he starts doing this growling noise and his veins pop out of his neck and head. He is truly a special boy LOL! But he's my special boy. When he sometimes acts a fool, I'll just stare at him until he laughs. The worst part is in public. I get stares from people. Some people look at me with the "please smack your child" look and some look at me like "do something and we'll call CPS on you". I don't win. Ever. I think people in the public are too fucken nosey anyway. He is MY SON. AND Nevada is a disciplinary state. We are actually ALLOWED to discipline our children in public. But chichis forbid you actually do something and someone give you their chismoso opinion about it. Which then causes another issue cause I have a big mouth and will probably end up arguing with them.  Point is, every kid is different. Every kid will listen to who they want to listen too. Like my brother-in-law thinks he's super chingon with kids. He couldn't even put my son in time-out. My son didn't listen to him. It's who he is! I can't stress it enough. You might have an amazing 5 year old, and then a shitty ass 3 year old. You might have thought to yourself "well my 5 year old was great, so my 3 year old will be too". But that's not reality. Reality is, some kids are just wired different. Not all kids are perfect no matter how you raise them, feed them, teach them. They are their own little person! My son has potential for something. An actor, singer, entertainer of some sort. Sure it can also be me thinking he's has talent, but I'm not the only one who has said it. One day he'll grow up and mature. (Please do son, please). Until then, I have to deal with the tantrums and the criticism I get from people that think I am not raising my child right. I love my kid no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT! Plus, he is extremely handsome! I can't help but smile when I see him in a good mood and he's smiling. Or when he's asleep. That's my favorite part ;-)

What a good kinda' change!

So, if you know me, like actually truly KNOW ME, you know I've struggled a bit with being feminine. I've always been a tomboy and still consider myself one. But now things have shifted a bit. I'm at a good weight. I feel good about myself. I seriously can't leave the house anymore without make-up. It has to be compact or mascara, something! It just makes me feel better. I feel more attractive and confident. So I am enjoying this little change of mine! You know what I can't change? My hair! I seriously can't comb my hair for shit!!! I just don't know how! I can flat iron it and give it a little curl and that's it! On my lazy days, which is like 5 days out of the week, I usually just throw my hair in a pony tail. If I want to feel different, I'll braid it. But that's as far as I go. I see all these heinas with cute ass hair styles and I just want to yank their hair off out of pure jealousy ;-) just kidding! haha! But seriously! I need to figure this shit out! I want to YouTube videos that help put on make-up and give you hair tips but I don't even know where to start!! I'll get there though! I already feel sexier so watcha' when I figure it all out for good! SAS!