I'm OK.

Hola my imaginary peeps that I think actually ready my blog! LOL! It's been a while since I last wrote. Sorry. I just can't blog properly on my phone. I must be behind a CPU and that rarely happens now. But anyway, I'm here now. Things have changed quiet a bit in the last couple of weeks. For one, I passed my 90 day probation at work and I'm still there! Yeah for me! Now to just make it to 6 months! More dinero! Hmmm, what else, planning a little getaway within a year! I am paying off my debt & I am looking forward to a new place! I honestly feel great right now. I've also lost some weight and I just feel better about myself. I was determined to have a good year and I really plan to stick to it. Not everyday is a good day. Of course I have days when I wanna give the dogs away, or my son ;-) or i want to rip my uterus out or I want to yell back at a guest! But not the whole day is bad. I get a laugh out almost everyday! I just finally think I like myself. Is that sad? Like I've accepted the fact that I have cellulite in my stomach. It's gross, not attractive but it's there and it's been there for years! I've also finally accepted that I have shitty ass skin! Am I gonna stop bitching about it? Probably not. But I've accepted it. I've accepted the fact that I am a statistic and so is my son. Am I surprised? Kinda. Yeah. But it's life. Everything we encounter daily is not always gonna suck. We seriously just gotta be thankful for the good shit that we go through. Fo' Real! I'm not blaming anyone for how I've been in the past. No one has made me change or made me different. It's been all me! I like the me I am right this second! Like right now! And to think, I have 3 pimples right now! Huge nasty red one's. But eh, it is what it is! Anyway, this kinda went everywhere! I must exit the premises now.