Today is exactly a week and a year before I've been single for 2 years. At the moment I'm on my second glass of Whiskey and coke. I've ate out of Tupperware. I have Ellie Goulding, Lana Del Rey, Juan Gabriel, Pepe Aguilar & Save Ferris on shuffle. I am finally in my own apartment. It took me a year and 8 months to get here. I am BEYOND grateful for my Tia, Tio and cousins for putting up with me for so long. Sometimes, family can be so amazing. I owe my Tia a lot. Nick and I are happy in our own place. It's so quiet and peaceful. We bond a lot. I try to keep him busy. I kick his ass on mortal Kombat and Sonic the Hedge Hog. We do redbox a lot. We go to dinner or lunch dates. Its been good. I can't say that I have a whole lot to prove in a year. I mean I still have a job. We are healthy, he has only had 1 seizure this year. We aren't poor. I can afford raspados de vanilla every now and then. It's good. Nick is amazing at reading. He is almost done with the First grade word list. He's so tall and just so so handsome!!! I get flowers picked for me very often. From the sidewalks, from leaving school. He's still grumpy and a smart ass. But he's my little man. He is soooo funny! He seems to be proud of me. He tells me he loves me everyday. He says 'oh, we forgot to hug' almost every single day when we get home. So I HAVE to stop whatever it is I'm doing and hug him for almost 2 mins straight. No words, no talking. Just deep breaths and hugs.
I was supposed to talk about my accomplishments as a single mom and all I can talk about is my son.
He is my accomplishment. He's all I can talk about, all the time. It doesn't matter where I live, what we eat, where we go. He is just so proud to be my son, and me his mom. I was meant to be his mom. I don't know what it means or what he will be when he grows up but for now I am very proud.
I still have a great job and my same circle of friends. Literally. All you bitches are lucky. I don't 'add' new friends on social networking places 'just because'! If we haven't talked in over a year, we probably ain't going to.
I'm very content with my life. I can LITERALLY do anything I want when I want....2x a week. I like a few people I work with. I am still content with visiting California and Arizona 2-3x a year. I'm good yo'! I may not have a man and I may have my lonely nights. But gosh fucken damnit it is the SHIT watching and doing what you want when you are ridin' solo!
I will never settle.
I will forever be a mother first.
Settle or not i would hope you will always be a mother first lol doesnt necessarily mean you have to put being a mother second, you deserve a good man and i know you will find him in time, when it is your time! You are way too amazing to be alone forever. I will be your maid of honor one daaaay!
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