Why have attitude?

Guilty! God damn am I guilty of having the shittiest attitude EVER! Not always, although sometimes I'm told it's ALWAYS! I promise you it's not. I can be super cheery, happy and fun! But sometimes I'm just rude as hell. I can't have a normal day if something gets me mad in the morning. It just fucks up my whole day. But why? Why do I have to have the typical psycho latina attitude? I say "typical latina" cause that's how we are sometimes portrayed! It's like we act so chingonas and have to be hard asses and we just make ourselves look bad! NOT every latina is this way. Relax! Just like 95% of the one's I personally know :-) I want to not have an attitude. I want to learn to take things in stride, suck it up, deal with it and get over it. I can't though. No matter how hard I try, I just can't. I get so angry! Now I know where my son gets it from =/ fuck, I admitted it! He gets his horrible attitude from me. In order for him to change and be more calm, I need to change. No one can change me, I need to change myself. What will it take though? I'm already having some personal struggles that hopefully will be mended soon. I do take blame that the struggles I am currently dealing with are partly my fault. I just take shit so serious! But yet, I'm a joker and I get offended if someone takes what I say serious. How can I fix that? Why can't I just let something go into one ear and out the other? Ay, yo no se, but I need to get over this shit, serio pedo! And quick! I'm 28 years old and I don't want to get grumpier as I get older. I want to be chill, and enjoy myself and not be so angry all the time. I need to realize that my son is a naughty boy and has a mind of his own and right now I can't control him much but just hold on to hope that he'll grow out of it!! I need to not take life so serious. We are not guaranteed tomorrow...shit, we aren't even guaranteed an hour! You just never know! Stress and attitude kills! I can have a heart attack cause I'm such a prude! I can't say I'm going to change over night, but I sure will try! Especially for my child. I don't want him to grow up and tell his friends that they can't come over cause "mom is in a bad mood and she might be a biatch"!