Music is everything to me. I have music on while I'm getting ready, in the shower, while I'm driving, as I walk into work, while I cook, eat dinner, etc. it's on all the time. I would say about 100% of the time, a song pops up and it reminds me of something. It can be any kind of memory. A good one, a bad one. Many that I would love to forget. About 10 mins before I started this blog a song came on and I instantly rolled my eye's and was like "ugh I hate this song now cause it makes me think of..." Then I stopped myself and said "fuck that! This is a great song and I should not allow myself to hate it cause of a certain person or situation"! No one or anything should have that negative affect on you. Seriously! And this isn't about my recent situation with that fake relationship I was in. It's about every situation where music made an impact on my life. Certain songs remind me of certain people. Like the band 112 remind me of Valdez. LL Cool J reminds me of Pancha. That song "Blue" by Eiffel 65 reminds me of Bro. The band Mana reminds me of Lover and Cat. Of course some remind me of dude's. And up until this blog, literally, I tried avoiding those songs. But chingale! I will not let that defy me anymore. I won't stop listening to a song cause I was jaded for like 5 mins. I'm a god damn Virgo! We are some tough cabronas! Like I said not all memories are bad. Each and everytime I hear Juan Gabriel, my very first memory is being 8 years old and going to his concert at the Universal Amphitheater and waiting for him after his concert by his white limo. He came over to our family and his sweaty chunky ass kissed me on my cheek. I remember my parent's were like shoving us forward so this man in an all white suit can kiss us! Haha! I was so grossed out! But NOW, now that I'm 32 and I hear JuanGa, I go back to that moment and I'm so proud that I had it. How great is that now! I got kissed by JuanGa!
Some song make me pause more then others. Especially when it comes to me thinking of a certain loved one that has passed. I have so many that it will be hard to name them all. But just to name a few, my Tio Johnny and his love for The Beatles. I give him 100% credit for instilling them into my head. A few weeks after he passed, I went to see the show 'LOVE'. It's a Cirque show. All Beatles! It reminded me so much of my Tio that I went to get 'In my life' tattooed on me. But it was also my HS graduation song. So it has double meaning. The Eagle's always remind me of Bertha. They come on at the exact perfect moment all the time. The Cure reminds me of Eddie. Sarah Mclachlan reminds me of Ana who passed while I was in HS. I can go on and on. Point I'm trying to desperately make is, at some point these songs made me sad and confused. And I want to always think happy thoughts. Even the ugly break-ups, and the concerts I want to forget. Nope. I had those experiences for a reason. And it's for all these reason's that I have these thoughts and feelings. And I'm grateful for each and every one. Music is life.
Currently playing is Griffin House on Pandora.
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